Long time no me!
Yeah, it’s been awhile.
I just thought I would put up something about me that I had written once for an English Assignment. Feel free to point any grammatical/moral/intellectual mistakes 
It’s hard to describe yourself when you know that your thoughts, perceptions and your very meaning of life changes time after time. To start with, I can be honest to myself and begin with the fact that I’m what I’m right now at this point of time, the person who believes in a lot of philosophies which are nothing but a consequence of personal experiences which have shaped my life and its purpose.
For me, Experience has been the best teacher. My own personal experiences can best describe what I really am. My life has taken me through 19 years of the best and worst moments. Some taught me how to do good to people and some have also taught me how to do something really evil. But I believe that it’s human to be good and be evil at the same time. No way is this an excuse to get an A grade in doing evil. It’s not easy to get a balance where your good deeds outweigh your bad deeds but the one who can make this possible can really stand out from the rest. And to stand out with such goodness is what I really want to achieve.
I have learnt a lot from my school life. It’s the transition from that subconscious thinking to the conscious thinking and perceiving of things that changed a lot in me. I used to be an introvert in school. I had a very few number of friends and was away from the other groups which had around 9 members nodding their heads over their “leader’s” decision of going out to the next most happening place in the locality. Moreover, an eye contact with a person from the opposite sex would trigger a 5 minute meaningless thought process in my brain.
My interest in technical know-how of things somehow directed me to pursue a career in engineering. It was my constant acquaintance with computers from the age of 13 years that got me a knack for it. I could relate well with these binary machines and could logically learn a lot without any guidance. My decision turned into a reality and I got myself admitted to a science college with electronics as my vocational elective. But then, my college, like many other colleges neither offered me good quality education nor apparatus for learning electronics and it was a total haywire process of learning which suppressed my technical capabilities and rather crammed my head with formulae and circuit diagrams.
My decision to get admitted in a management college was wise. It provided me with a platform for my family business ahead after education and it was better than wasting my time with all the engineering gibberish taught by the university. It was a small turning point in my life. I had started thinking and perceiving things and people around me. I started making judgments about people around me and developed a set of ideas and philosophies to follow. There was this strong urge to like or dislike my peers. I had explored most of them and understood their psyches and somehow I filtered out certain individuals and started ignoring them. It was typical of me to do so. I realized with time that some set of judgments and prejudices only narrowed my thinking.
My perfectionist nature helped me a lot in my management of daily activities. With so many things to do, from having fun with friends to keeping myself updated about the business world along with my daily college and homework, I learnt to manage my personal time. It was just a start; I also was appreciated for my project work even though I was weak with the written exams. I earned a lot of brownies of encouragement which please my ego. Having an ego was as much a poison as it was nectar to me. Competition would develop into jealousy at times. I wasn’t an egotist but it surely hurt to hear something bad about myself.
It is a time now, where I have turned from an extrovert who knew everyone to an ambivert who knows many but talks to a few. In the end, it doesn’t even matter what I think about people as long as my acts are good and I still stand by them.
I read about many famous people in the media who live for money and fame to stand out. I do know though that there are other ways to stand out. Using your skill in the right direction can earn you love and self satisfaction unlike the money which can earn you nothing more than a flashy Porsche or a 3 BHK at Pali Hill. There’s a lot more to life than that – it’s how many people who can stand up for you at your worst times that count and how greatly are you perceived by your near and dear one’s that matter the most. In the eyes of God, it’s your “karma” that counts after all.